the meet up was good.
unexpectedly yet so; as usually,
it turned out great.
we spent good times together.

though some words and facts,
they dun sound pleasant to my ears,
probably to my heart too.
but i guessed i got used to it,
or maybe i prepared myself so well
that i can take it.

you said you cannot and you dont want to
make a choice between the 2 alternatives.
you said you cannot make the choice..
you remember?

and for the selfishness in you,
i made the choice instead.
given in a worse situation compared to u,
i made the choice instead.
and i chose my friends,
i chose our frenship.
and i forgo her....

i did this,
because i thought it would be the best way out.
best way to keep our frenship.
i did it, for u?
and for her happiness probably.

she dun need my love.
she dun need my concern.
she need them all no more.
and now i guess she needs yours..
keep ur promise, my friend.
i've entrusted her to you.
dun fail me gary,
u gotta keep ur words.

8months+ of struggle.
and what about you?
within days, you've got her.
with my forgiveness and blessings.
you can never compare the tiredness in you to me.
because i swear,
no one of us, your good friends,
will do this to u..
and i mean, NONE of us ever will.....

you will never face this feeling,
the kinda of feeling being betrayed by ur good fren.
and u never gonna understand how i am feeling.
it's just too much for me to take.
i've got not much energy left.
cos i used them up to face this reality;
this harsh reality....

well... all of my friends around me,
some scolded me for being stupid,
some commented that im noble.
but did any of u guys realise,
how much pain is inflicted upon me?
how much i din wan to make this choice?

situation like that,
it forced me to make this decision.
girl, im sorry i have to let u go..
but rest assure, i will still be there,
i'll nv ever let u get hurt..
this i promise you......

however, some heart felt feelings,
i've decided to let them go...
they will follow the flow of the river,
they will follow the direction of the wind,
they will follow the beat of the music,
they will go....

dun worry, i'm still standing strong.
i'm not collapsing yet.
maybe soon, i will break down?
but on the other hand,
maybe i will continue standing strong?
with all the supports from my fellow friends.

i dont know.
i have no idea.
and it hurts..
especially when you said,
i'm not your fren even.

it's ok.. like i said:
i'm happy, because you are happy.
u gotta lead ur life happier than me.

i'm standing so strong still because;
iloveyou