Yesterday worked till 4.30 i zao.. den... went to jackee's hse. haha.. ah ma cook kway chap. but i wasn't hungry. but that cb jackee force me to eat. lol. so i ate lor. den buy tidbits den we eat at ah kee's room. lol.. den i do my things, jackee play her laptop. until 10pm den i go le.. went to pass mark some stuff and i went home..

when i was at ah kee hse, ard 9+.. i went online to check my sch application, it's a totally disaster. 3 choices, one row come down "UNSUCCESSFUL"..

I found myself emotionless-ly
staring at the screen for few minutes.
tears nearly rolled down.

Suddenly, regrets just got all over me.
but i just told myself;
"Hey, you chose this path,
you deserve it."

Probably i cannot take all these anymore.
So many bad things is happening to me now.
I.... sigh.. I've got nothing to say.
More like.... I dont know what to say.
I need time alone..

So yesterday i went offline early,
I lie down and think about all these
which is happening to me.

I feel so sad..
But 12+am my phone rang.
I saw the name
and i was stunned for few seconds
before answering the phone call.

It's more of a surprise.
But the person who called,
didn't manage to help to share my woes.
Probably, i didn't share it bah..
But i hope i did,
share her woe with her.... :)

SUI BIAN LA HUR!!!!
I HATE MYSELF,
I'M WASTING PRECIOUS RESOURCES IN THIS WORLD!